Hi Craig and everybody else. I've been reading on this site and reading other books on the afterlife and soul progression for a while. Please forgive me if I sound negetive but life here is so difficult.

I read time and time again that we choose to come here by choice to learn and to grow.. but I feel like I've been tricked because I have been through a living hell here on earth and I'm not even in my 30's yet. I just feel like I am deteriorating bad and that all of this is for nothing. The only reason I do not kill myself is because I have a beautiful 4 year old daughter and I am the only one providing for her.

I'm sorry if I'm rambling and venting but it just seems like this is not fair... why not just stay on the astral plane and learn our lessons there.. yes it may take longer but it is eternal life...whats the rush... coming here to earth to me does nothing but cause pain, suffering, and anguish.. I understand the soul cannot be destroyed by this but it really hurts and life is just unbearable sometimes...

I write poetry and songs to deal with these issues.. and like I said I read books on soul progression but that only helps so much... please tell me I am not a fool for coming onto the earth plane and suffering like this.. I will never commit suicide because I love my daughter but the afterlife is sounding pretty good compared to earth.

Thanks.